I feel like I am behind in life

Looking around, everyone seems to have their lives figured out or their life plan mapped out. It’s so difficult, not to look at people’s success without comparing it to your…

Looking around, everyone seems to have their lives figured out or their life plan mapped out. It’s so difficult, not to look at people’s success without comparing it to your own. They say don’t compare your journey to that of someone else but really how do you not?

Sometimes I wonder what it is I am doing wrong. What is it that I haven’t done yet? How do I get that dream career, dream house, dream car, and dream partner? It’s as if there were a manual to life being passed around, but unfortunately for me, I did not get one. It gets to a point where you start to think that you just might be unfortunate, because if there is such a thing as luck, surely it has never knocked on my door.

Clap for others until your own turn comes around. It’s exhausting. Really? Like how long am I expected to cheer for others? Don’t get me wrong, I am happy to see others win and have good in their lives. But at the same time the urge to compare yourself while celebrating others is inevitable. Truly, two things can coexist at once.

Why am I writing this? I know for sure someone out there feels the same. Hell, they probably don’t know how to articulate this. But I did, at least I tried to to the best of my ability. I hope that some day, I may be able to look at someone else’s achievements and not feel the need to put myself through the torture of comparing my life to their own.

XO, Shisoka.

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